Suffering never leaves

You know those poems and songs that talk about a broken heart? About the pain they went through or the "sorrow" they felt. Well folks, it's alive out there and riding my shoulder. >_>

Now matter how far i run i always seem to be stuck in my tracks with these pains running through my heart. *weeps* inside i feel like a hot plate and the burner is flaming through my heart! My poor heart has been through so much and at last it seemed to seal itself... so I thought. *sigh* instead I find myself peering over and glaring the worst possible thing in the face. "What if?" i tell myself... >_> *sigh* The feeling is so real yet I feel like no has had this sharp dagger through their heart. Mine comes and goes... I have good days and I have bad. Recently I've been fine but, my trip has opened up that wound and I accidently poured lemon juice on it! ugh, the pain!

You may laugh and most will never understand. I feel sick. I feel like hiding. I'm shaky and weak not to mention cold. *holds self* I understand why people should never depart each other. ooooo... it kills. :( no smily face can show the feelings... I would only get in trouble if I announced everything. I just wish someone would understand. *tear*

Packs

Every good traveler must have a good pack... right? well, I was over in REI and this guy gave me great advice on which back pack i should have. he started telling me about this pac. I thought "My gosh this is the one." Opens on top (good for holding and horriable for stealing, a plus), it is 33 liters (can hold lots of stuff), very durable (wonderful i dont have to worry about falling and scraping it and all my things falling out), water resistant (awesome, a quick dip in lakes, rivers, and pools or whatever else i fall into wont ruin EVERYTHING), and the best part is the color scheme... BRIGHT COLORS (when i drop the bag, i can find it!). So, he shows me this bag and i gasp and laugh. i could imagine myself with it and being stuck on the escelator (dunno why i would have it with me on it), trees, bushes, doorknobs, railing, doors, anything that can catch. this pack had soooo many drawstings it looked like my cat, charlie, shredded it! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha... well, who knows it will give me a good laugh and maybe amuse the natives! hahahahahahahahaha