Starting out Fresh*er!

I am very excited to say that I am actually having a TON-O fun playing out in the sun! All summer I have been trying to get people together and just hangout with instead of staying in the hous ALL DAY! BORING! lol but, I am very pleased to say that my world has been turing around for the better at least I hope so!

Not only have there been changes on who I hang out with but, changes in my attitude on life! I want to explore and have fun while earning up to getting that few grand to travel! I have some things I want to accomplish like volunteer at a hospital and apply to a talent agency AND to add traveling and helping people out while doing all that! No more will i put up with sitting I WANT TO GO!! Maybe it's the age But, i think I am actually ready!

:D Happy :D

Possible SCARS!

I may get 3 GOOD SCARS! Trust and be hurt one way or another! At least the scars will look cool! I'm just glad I don't have to go to the doctors, they aren't that bad. Kind of a little upset though, because they will be visible! Errrrrr...oh well that's how life goes I assume!

Life Comes Fast and Leaves Even Faster

I have had some interesting few weeks behind me and many yet to come. I feel well, lonely, confused, and a tad bit unstable for picking my future. But, all is well! I jumped out of an airplane and experienced how life can seem to disappear right from underneath you. When I jumped you would think that I would be scared or nervous about my life but, actually I was thinking of the past and what the instructor told me to do to prepare myself.
Such as;
1) Have fun
2)Arch your back
3)Cross your arms.

The easiest instructions I have heard but for some reason I was so paranoid to do them exactly and found myself thinking so hard on those easy instructions that i missed the one thing I was trying to focus so hard on, HAVING A BLAST. It kind of reminded me of life. Here you are about to take your BIG step and follow your dream that you have been waiting for and right when the moment comes to feel "free" you are captivated by everything behind you and get so worried to make it feel "free" that when the moment came you already lost it. That seems to be the way things have been going for me so far. Now, Skydiving was amazing and I will be jumping again very very soon! But, it just went to show me that I can jump with my eyes open and enjoy life without having to worry about my instructions, be mindful, YES, but, not have to be so focused that I lose the thrill!

Recently I had been told by a very near person that I should slow down on my list of things I want to complete but, I have to say "Live life to is fullest! Take in every available breathe and never let it go cause, who knows one day you may lose it forever?! Life comes fast and leaves even faster!"

Skydiving

Well, this will be my last post until I take the leap of faith and jump off of a perfectly good airplane. Although I know the risks I am willing to go do it before I experience traveling. I will now be able to scratch this one off my list. I am really excited but, VERY nervous. I hope everything goes well and, of course it will, but I will probably truly enjoy every minuet of it at least that is my plan.

My mom said she will not "miss this moment for the world!" I'm very happy that she is behind me on this! It makes me that much more anxious! Well, *sigh* here I go! To enjoy life to its fullest! At leat to attempt to!

Wish me luck, and pray for me, my well being, and my good friend, Matt!
*Night* will post as soon as I get home and unwind from the adrenalin.

FOUND IT!!!

I finally found the song....YAY!!! One that I can relate to.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WY57jGNCN8Q

EXCITEMENT!!!

I am finally going to jump on the 10th of July for sure...or at least we will see. I am truly excited and geared up for the whole thing. I'm not sure how I will react such as; jump with pizazz or scream my head off with freight?!

I officially have a partner to go with me so, if I die I hope he goes with me. My friend, and dance partner, Matthew! He is wonderful enough to go on this outrages jump with me!! Too excited to keep it in myself. I feel like fireworks exploding with anticipation!

River bed Always Awaiting

Like a lonely river bed waiting for the spring to come, hoping that she will be filled up to provide decent joys to lovely critters. Pure and rejuvenating spring water trickle down the uneven pebbles and stones creating a new trail of the future stream of life. All fills to the utmost capacity with generous of new life being created by the moving stream circling the upcoming bank.

All in all the lonely riverbed sheepishly awaits each spring time to be filled. As the summer comes and drought arrives only hope can keep the bed side satisfied with unexplainable joy it must wait till the next fall of spring river. In the mean time the lonely river bed only dwells on the good times it has had and impact that it had once made.

Lovely river bed which, created a new path each and every spring to give its purpose to those in need. Lovely, lovely, lovely riverbed how do you keep?