Rainy DAYS

Falling specks
Feeling so wet
Understanding that the sun is bless
not knowing when it will let up
not knowing when it will come again
keeping my head held high only stops it from pouring again!

Rain Rain give me your heart
Let me dance
Let me fall into your middle and sing
Can it be that just we can be free?

ALL SMILES

All SMILES! I just got in contact with the DTS in France and am soooo excited to see what information they can give me! I am also on track on going through my church and for right now I am at peace with the ideas of money! Money will come if God wants this!

I am having a blast with my friends and hope that this fall will be the best so far at EdCC!

Starting out Fresh*er!

I am very excited to say that I am actually having a TON-O fun playing out in the sun! All summer I have been trying to get people together and just hangout with instead of staying in the hous ALL DAY! BORING! lol but, I am very pleased to say that my world has been turing around for the better at least I hope so!

Not only have there been changes on who I hang out with but, changes in my attitude on life! I want to explore and have fun while earning up to getting that few grand to travel! I have some things I want to accomplish like volunteer at a hospital and apply to a talent agency AND to add traveling and helping people out while doing all that! No more will i put up with sitting I WANT TO GO!! Maybe it's the age But, i think I am actually ready!

:D Happy :D

Possible SCARS!

I may get 3 GOOD SCARS! Trust and be hurt one way or another! At least the scars will look cool! I'm just glad I don't have to go to the doctors, they aren't that bad. Kind of a little upset though, because they will be visible! Errrrrr...oh well that's how life goes I assume!

Life Comes Fast and Leaves Even Faster

I have had some interesting few weeks behind me and many yet to come. I feel well, lonely, confused, and a tad bit unstable for picking my future. But, all is well! I jumped out of an airplane and experienced how life can seem to disappear right from underneath you. When I jumped you would think that I would be scared or nervous about my life but, actually I was thinking of the past and what the instructor told me to do to prepare myself.
Such as;
1) Have fun
2)Arch your back
3)Cross your arms.

The easiest instructions I have heard but for some reason I was so paranoid to do them exactly and found myself thinking so hard on those easy instructions that i missed the one thing I was trying to focus so hard on, HAVING A BLAST. It kind of reminded me of life. Here you are about to take your BIG step and follow your dream that you have been waiting for and right when the moment comes to feel "free" you are captivated by everything behind you and get so worried to make it feel "free" that when the moment came you already lost it. That seems to be the way things have been going for me so far. Now, Skydiving was amazing and I will be jumping again very very soon! But, it just went to show me that I can jump with my eyes open and enjoy life without having to worry about my instructions, be mindful, YES, but, not have to be so focused that I lose the thrill!

Recently I had been told by a very near person that I should slow down on my list of things I want to complete but, I have to say "Live life to is fullest! Take in every available breathe and never let it go cause, who knows one day you may lose it forever?! Life comes fast and leaves even faster!"